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Okay so I’ve been trying to figure out what to write about pretty much ever since that last post, and I couldn’t really make up my mind until I finished reading Perks of Being a Wallflower.

Which, after I spent about 12 hours fangirling and coming down from that I-just-read-an-amazing-book high, left me thinking about how some books are good, and others are life-changing.

So I’ve decided to give you guys a smallish list of books that have profoundly affected my life and the way I look at the world, They’re not in any particular order, nor is this all of them (not even close) just the ones sitting in the front of my brain.


  1. Perks of Being a Wallflower by Peter Chbosky

I figured since this was the book that started this post it should come first. It was really profound. I fell in love with the characters, the style, and the story from the moment I picked it up. It was just beautiful.

Favorite quotes:

“And in that moment, I swear we were infinite.”

“I would die for you. But I won’t live for you.”

“So, this is my life. And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I’m still trying to figure out how that could be.”

“We accept the love we think we deserve.”

Also, the poem, and really the whole damn book is quotable, it’s fucking beautiful.

I feel like what I got from this book was to embrace the moments, to be earnest with my feelings and actions, and to love the life I have.


2. The Picture of Dorian Gray By Oscar Wilde

I’d like to add that this is and has been my favorite book ever since I read it, almost four years ago, and that is an astonishing record for me. I’m a slut for Oscar Wilde and I sincerely wish I could have a conversation with him, you know, if he wasn’t dead. I feel like this book is ridiculously quotable, fun to read, and has real depth under neath the many layers of fabulousness.

Favorite quotes:

“The books that the world calls immoral are books that show the world its own shame.”

“Humanity takes itself too seriously. It is the world’s original sin. If the cave-man had known how to laugh, History would have been different.”

“Experience is merely the name men gave to their mistakes.”

“Nowadays people know the price of everything and the value of nothing.”

“I am too fond of reading books to care to write them.”

“Some things are more precious because they don’t last long.”

“Laughter is not at all a bad beginning for a friendship, and it is by far the best ending for one.”

Also, the entire fucking book is just one massive pile of beautiful, charming, horrible, quotes from a beautiful, cynical, miserable, man. It was utterly breathtaking and reminded me that there are more important things than being beautiful, clever, and popular. And that in the end it’s better to be honest with yourself and the people you love.


3. Hamlet by If I need to tell you, why are you reading this???

Obviously this is a play not a book, but I love it tremendously so it has to be included. People say Shakespeare is hard to read, I feel like its more hard to start reading, and then once you do it’s hard to stop. Also this is my favorite Shakespeare anything.

Favorite Quotes:

“Doubt thou the stars are fire;
Doubt that the sun doth move;
Doubt truth to be a liar;
But never doubt I love.” –also probably my favorite quote of all time.

“This above all: to thine own self be true,
And it must follow, as the night the day,
Thou canst not then be false to any man.”

“There is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so.”

“Though this be madness, yet there is method in’t.”

“Listen to many, speak to a few.”

I feel like the romance between Hamlet and Ophelia is only tied between the love of Annabel Lee and the speaker for best romance of all time. Look at that first quote, just look at it, it’s beautiful and sweet and sad and dreamy, pretty much the whole play is. Hamlet served as a reminder to do what I believe is right, and to say what’s on my mind.


4. Impulse by Ellen Hopkins

I’m also a slut for Ellen Hopkins, her writing style, her stories, they’re always so sad and touching and raw and real. This is one of the first books of hers that I read, and it’s stayed my favorite. Probably because I find it the easiest to identify with, I feel like Vanessa was written for me, and they’re all in a mental hospital.

Favorite Quotes:

“Grandma once told me it’s easy to overthink love, to dissect it and question it until it is no more.”

“One foot in front of the other, counting tiles on the floor so I don’t have to focus the blur of painted smiles, fake faces.” An accurate description of highschool Life.

“It [death] chokes you, gags you, but you have to pretend that you’re doing just fine, not trembling with this fear because the end is close.”

“Too much to take in, too much to purge. Why must every memory, once sweet, dead end in such ugliness?”

This book isn’t happy, it doesn’t have a happy ending, and there’s very little fluff to distract you from how horrible it is. But it was the first book I ever read that had characters who were depressed. It was novel for me to know that there were enough people who felt the way I do everyday that somebody would write a book about them. It also taught me to keep going, that it’s worth it to keep working, and that ending it all solves nothing.


5. Furiously Happy by Jenny Lawson 

This isn’t a novel or a story like the rest of them, it basically read like a collection of posts from her blog, which I adore, so it was totally awesome. (Only decent Best present my in-laws ever bought me) She alternates between talking about her life as a funny awesome mom person, and coping with severe depression and a host of other mental issues.

Favorite Quotes/Chapters:

“Don’t sabotage yourself. There are plenty of other people willing to do that for free.”

“Don’t make the same mistakes that everyone else makes. Make wonderful mistakes. Make the kind of mistakes that make people so shocked that they have no other choice but to be a little impressed.”

“I AM GOING TO BE FURIOUSLY HAPPY, OUT OF SHEER SPITE.” (How I’ve decided to approach life from here on out.)

“I can’t think of another type of illness where the sufferer is made to feel guilty and question their self-care when their medications need to be changed.”

“Normal is boring. Weird is better. Goats are awesome, but only in small quantities.”


Furiously Happy, Dangerously Sad

Pretend your Good at it

George Washington’s Dildo

An Essay on Parsley, Wasabi, Cream Cheese, and Soup

We’re Better Than Galileo, Because He’s Dead. (specifically the spoon theory)

Well at Least Your Nipples are covered. ( I read this at Josh, I have noticed a slight improvement in compliment sincerity, I feel like this is a magical chapter)

And It Might be Easier, But It Wouldn’t Be Better. (This basically felt like what Josh is always trying to say but can never get out right.)

This book was ridiculously funny, gave me new insight into dealing with my shitload of crazy, and is the only thing I’ve ever read about depression that didn’t make me feel more depressed after I read it. I laughed and cried, out loud, like audibly, like it invoked a physical reaction in me. And it was a beautiful reminder that we’re not alone, we’re not broken, and in some ways, we have the potential to be even more awesome than the normal people. Seriously, if you’ve ever struggled with depression read this, or her blog, either or, both are awesome Cx

Anywhore sorry this is so long, believe it or not I cut a lot out, but these are the stories that touched my soul. They changed the way I view the world, the way I cope with life, the way I look at myself and others. I hope if you read them you feel the same way, or at least find them enjoyable.



More Book Stooffs

I swear! Galit always finds the best tags -.-

This time it’s another book-nerdy one. Because I feel like a lazy little shit for not posting, but I melted my brain somewhere towards the last two paragraphs of my finals that I submitted roughly an hour before they were do. *awards self with master procrastinator badge.*


Would you rather…

Read only trilogies or stand alones?

Honestly, I’d rather read stand alones. I have a problem stopping a book even if I don’t like it, so if it’s a stand-alone I’m only reading one bad book instead of three.

Read only male or female authors? Hmm while most of the regular, every day books I pick up are written by female authors (Sucker for the paranormal romance genre here.) All of my favorites seem to be written by dudelies. So with Scott Westerfield being the tie breaker, I’m breaking the pattern here and saying male.

Shop at bookshops or online?

Oh god, I love book stores but I think I have to say online, just so that I can afford more!

All books become movies or t.v. shows?

Neither? I’ve seen very very few (read, none.) books that I thought they really nailed on screen. That being said, t.v. shows because most of my favorite anime are adapted from manga. And I feel it gives the creators more time to delve into the plot and all the little details that make books awesome.

Read 5 pages per day or 5 books per week?

Ideally 5 books a week, though I think my daughter might end up starving to death if I did ^.^

Be a professional reviewer or author?

Being a professional reviewery person, I’m not much of a writer but I feel that I read enough to really know when a book is well written, and I think I’m pretty decent at politely saying when something sucks.

Only read your top 20 favorite books over and over or always read new ones that you haven’t read before?

Whoever thought this up, I hate you. This is bad. bad bad bad. But since an answer is required, I’m going with always new ones because, duh. *Plus* most of my favorites are classics so I could probably find some decent adaptations/abridged- type things

Be a librarian or bookseller?

Librarian, I just love the vibe good libraries give off and I feel my social anxiety would be better suited to the more relaxed and subdued setting of a library vs a place like BAM where it seems like they never have enough employees to get everything done.

Only read your favorite genre, or every genre except your favorite?

Only my favorite, I’m a picky little shit so I don’t think I would handle being banned from my paranormals very well.

Only read physical books or eBooks?

Phhhhhttttttfffffshhhhhhh I’m avidly anti-e-reader so again, duh. I’ll just through my book in my bag if I want to read while I’m out. True story:  one time my parents dragged me to a huge picnic/bbq/party that I didn’t want to go to so I sat in a corner and read hitchhikers guide to the galaxy until we left and refused to speak.

Whoever’s tagged because that’s how tags work. ^.^


Further proof that I’m a bad person. Plus, miley cyrus doesn’t count as a celebrity…or you know, a human being.

I’m HOME! :D

FINALLEH I missed my bed. And my internet. And my shower. And not having to pay three bucks every time I wanted a can of coke. But I digress.

In order that you might feel informed: I shall probably end up separating all of my vacation ramblings into separate posts so that I might ramble about all of the things without it being a three thousandish word posteh.

But for now since I’m odd, I shall only discuss things pertinent to my arrival home. Mostly the fact that I can’t sit on the couch to type all of this because it’s buried under approximately 38.2 billion loads of laundry. Just a rough estimate, but it looks pretty accurate from my view in bungee chair beside said couch-eating laundry mountain. *sighs*

Yup yesterday we got back at four-ish and pretty much just unpacked ordered pizza (there is no foods in our home right now   😦 *sighs with sadnesses*) and finished watching attack on titan only for Josh to then mention “Oh yea, season two isn’t out yet, and probably won’t be until 2016ish” BKAHS QWKURNQEI?OYR T?AYROGARYOIWFGJ WRGLD ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?!?!?!?!? Sadistic fucker -.- Now I have to find somewhere online to read the manga’s just so I know what fucking happens?!?!?! GHRAHLJHGILHAERGAH FGLADFG <– I am upset by this news. *growls* after we finished watching ze amine’s (letter-switching was intentional, don’t stab me.) We then played mah chrissymas video game until it was beddish time. That plus starting the 57 million loads of laundry was all that was accomplisheded yesterday evenings. *sighs*

I should probably start folding that laundry.

Except you know you don’t want to 

But if I don’t then I can’t sit on the couch and watch more anime’s later

Or you could sit on the floor and watch them now.

But I can’t watch them now anyways because smidge is running around eating things so I’d have to hold her and wouldn’t be able to read subtitles.

 Well NYAHHH you’re no fun you boring old person

 Fuck you lazy brain.

Fuck you too mrs. I’m going to be a responsible housewifey adult person

We should probably go see a doctor and find out if these conversations are normal…….

At least we can agree on something. *sulks away so I can go do laundry*

This is a tiny baby hedge-hog:



Scrambehling O.O

I’m trying to clean the entire goddamn apartment as fast as humanly possible because I absolutely hate it when I go on a nice trip, where I totally had a blast and enjoyed myself and then not only do I have to come back to reality, but I have to clean my goddamn room on top of it all. I also don’t want to have to take out the trash after the smidge’s diapers have been festering for a week. Um ew. (That’s what Josh is for….except not really, I try not to take advantage of the smexiness) So anyway doing laundry, trying to get the sheets changed, making sure smidge’s toys are contained to one tiny tornado zone instead of the entire living room.

AND on top of this I have to go find a fucking swimsuits and shorts in January!

ARJGDJFGLlASDGKHASFG QOENRU Q?EROGIYHANHG<– Venting my frustration on my poor abused keyboard

This is what I get for working my ass off (not eating for a long time) to lose all that goddamn weight. And Josh too. Fucking mister I-have-an-outdoorsy-job-so-I’m-going-to-get-all-muscley-so-you-won’t-want-to-use-me-as-a-pillow-anymore asshole. -.- naturally the smidge needs one as well. Dammit.

Smidge has fifteen minutes before I drag her ass out of crib so I can feed her and get this shit over with. It just sucks because I’m probably going to have to go into a bunch of stores that I don’t like to find some. Like Kohl’s and Macy’s and maybe even…. *shudders* hollister. Ew ew ew I get nauseous even thinking about it. So much of that goddamn disgusting cologne that makes my head hurt (breathe sis breathe, you’re gunna get through this. NO I WON’T I’M GUNNA DIEEEEEE *slaps self and goes all Edna mode* Pull Yourself Together! You will go in there you will attempt to find a swimsuit with more than two square inches of cloth on it and you will get out…. Oh shit I’m having a discussion with myself again I really gotta stop this……) Um yes. So. I don’t like hollister…. *sighs* this is gunna be a longggg day.

Go in, give the message, get out. (Veggie tales was my other disney. *sighs* I know, I’m a homeschooler nerd.) Maybe if I get it over with quickly and do end up going to the mall I can stop by hot topic and reward my epic bravery with one of those super-cute disney compact mirrors *rubs hands together villainously* I’m starting to like this plan…


Unpopular Opinions Tag?!

AHhhhhhh hthe tags theyre everywhereeeeee, That’s okay though because I enjoys them ^.^ This one be’s from Samm

1. A selection of T.V. programs you do not care for?

Hmmm Jersey Shore, Orange is the new black, honey boo boos ummmmm oh okay don’t kill me for this…. I fucking hate the walking dead. *ducks underneath the coffee table so I don’t get stabbed*

2. A selection of musical artists you do not care for?

One Direction, 5 Seconds of Summer, Katy Perry, Rihanna, anything top 40, rappy, or generally hip-hoppy….

3. A selection of celebrities you couldn’t care less about?

All of them? I don’t really give a shit about which rich whores are living in holly wood.

4. A hobby you just don’t get?

Exercising. Why would you do this for fun?!?!? like if you want to lose weight I get it but when you see some skinny bitch running around it’s just like wtf are you doing? Congratulations, you’re skinny now so go home and eat a goddamn bowl of ice creams!

5. A habit you find disgusting?

Hmm Spitting? Picking your nose? OH MY GOSH talking with food in your mouth or just chewing with your mouth open. Just ew. ew. stay away from me please.

6. Something in school you enjoyed doing, but others bitched about?

Umm Schoolwork? Like *homeschooled* so mini co-ops but yea I actually loved most of my schoolwork. Or wait do you mean things that I personally did? hmmm bouncing up and down and twitching.(I should’ve been on ADHD meds. I got called a squirrel alot)

7. Favorite household chore?

Folding warm laundry! I actually love folding laundry if it’s warm. It’s so soft and cuddly and warm and it smells like airfreshnery-goodness!

8. A popular video game that makes you go “meh”?

Call of duty probably. Most of the people that seem to love it have a very low iq and there are cooler looking shooty games out there. But I don’t really play video games soooo.

9.  Pc or mac?

PC all the way. Mac is for sheeple.

10. A sport you don’t like?


11. A sport you do like?

competitive nap times and binge-snacking.

12. T.V. programs you love, but have gotten shit for it?

Ummm anime in general (my mum can be a bitch) oh please don’t kill me but I loveee say yes to the dress…… *hangs head in shame*

13. A hobby you enjoy, that others find weird?

*debates whether or not self-harm is a hobby* um no probably like crocheting? Yea I know, 18 going on 80 but the repetitive mindlessness is actually relaxing. But I never finish anything.

14. A habit you have that other people don’t like you having?

Um skipping meals, and all those other self destructive behaviors I can’t seem to kick? Normal answer: Biting my nails and cracking my gum.

15. Something in school everyone enjoyed doing, but you hated?

Gossipingggg mostly because none of my friends were in my co op. Um hanging out in bathrooms. I still don’t get it unless your actually using it, or fixing your makeup.

16. A household chore that makes you want to chop your own face off?

Loading the dishwasher. Not so much anymore but at my parents place they’d let the dishes pile up for a week (in the house with 8 people) and then they’d be all like yup it’s your turn to do the dishes! and expect you to get them all done in two hours.

17. A video game you enjoy but probably shouldn’t?

The Stick of Truth! to date the only video game I’ve ever completed. I am also a total sucker for freemium games….

18. A celebrity crush even you don’t understand?

I don’t do celebrity crushes. See question 3. Why would I give a shit? Much less want to rape them.

19. A free rant on something that grinds your gears at the moment?

Hmmm I’m not feeling particularly ranty at the moment but here goessss:

I fucking hate people who can’t accept people who disagree with them. It’s like I just said I like a different type of music then you so why are you trying to stab me?

If I disagree with someone “I’m like oh you think Justin Beiber is the Beethoven of our generation and is a sex god that you want to be the father of your children? Um okay that’s weird, I don’t really care for him, but if that’s what makes you happy by all means bear the beibsters spawn” It’s not Ew your a psychotic stalker person with shitty taste in music that can go die in a hole, and rot in musical hell.

Even if that’s what you think you have no right to shit all over someone else for disagreeing with you. How fucking petty and smallminded do you have to be for that to be all right? Maybe I just have more practice because I like different things than my friends, and even Josh and I disagree on some shit. But I don’t get why it’s okay to completely bitch someone out for having a different opinion than yours. If we all agreed on everything life would be fucking boring. And don’t even get me started if it’s something political. I said I think killing babies is bad, not that your mom was a fat bitch who has sex for big macs, GODDDDDD.

I Give Up.

I’m sorry Julie Kagawa, but I just can’t. I’m done. I will not be finishing your Iron Fey series. I don’t understand. Why would you take something with so much potential and smother it in a pathetic mountain of girlish love-triangle disgustingness? I forgave you for ruining the ending of my beloved Immortal Rules saga, but that was different. That had Jackal. If you insist on continuing to make your main characters lovesick puppy girls, you need more Jackal characters, someone to poke fun, and point out how utterly pathetic they are. This series doesn’t have that. Meghan Chase is a complete and utter moron.

I don’t get it. How can you take something as cool as a half-mortal faery battling essentially bad-ass tech robots to save her family, and her boyfriend, and ruin it? Seriously, if it has faeries in it I’m guaranteed to adore it, and I HATE this series. Usually I can stick it out binge and get the whole thing over it. But you, my Asian author friend, have made me do the unthinkable. I’m quitting the series. Not only that, I’m quitting in the middle of the goddamn book. You ruined this. I can picture it all out perfectly in my head, the way everything is supposed to work out, and every single time I’ve been let down. Your heroine is an idiot comparable to Bella from Twilight. I didn’t even realize that was possible.

So it’s over. I’m sending them all back. Every single book I got from that library haul is going back. Because you spoiled my whole goddamn haul Kagawa. I trusted you and you let me down here. I’m so, so disappointed.

I mean what the fuck? You have a few good characters, people that forced me to continue against my better judgement. I mean I loveee broody stand-offish cold-hearted love interests. Ash was perfect. So was Robbin. And even Grimm. But that twat-faced idiotic brain-washed lovesick empty-headed pussy of a main character is just too fucking much. Back to the library you go. I will never EVER recommend any of your books again. Bitch.

I’m just glad I read Zero before I started on that goddamn mess. Because that book was AMAZING. Punk-ish main character that was easy to identify with, had realistic expectations and low self esteem a good plot and a heart-wrenching ending that left me screaming “What the mother-fuck it can’t fucking end like that! Holy shit that can’t be the fucking end!!!!” When it was in fact the end. That, was awesome. As long as I get a sequel in a year or two because if that tom leveen guy just seriously lets it end like that I will die. aghaer;kjghaoi;kfgn;hwjkefgj <– expressing my frustration through gentle keyboard bashing.

Hopefully I will be checking out the library close by me sometime in the next day or two. And then I’ll get a new haul. One untainted by the disease that is the iron fey novels. Motherfucker. *shakes my head with deep regrets*


I finished watching the Book Of Circus Last Night (contains spoilers) and it was AMAZING *cue psychotic fangirling* Seriously, I couldn’t find anything in the entire show that bugged me. And as far as I remember it was actually incredibly accurate to the manga. (Though it has been a while since I read that part, I’ll be re-reading it soon just to be sure) But the delay after Snake’s first line, before he said the “says Wilde” part seriously freaked me out. I was bouncing up and down yelling at the television about how they had better fucking not cut out the Says _______ *squishes my facey cheeks together in a display of fangirling adoration* But they just dragged it out to bug people. I LOVED all of it. They nailed all of the new characters perfectly (IMO)

Beast was her usual huffy BDSM self with the hidden lovesick girly person underneath it all

Dagger was constantly after Beast and making light of everything

Doll(Freckles ^.^) was totally Spot on, I loved her character to pieces

I hated the midgets just as much as i did in the manga

Joker was perfect as well.

and Snake (my favorite circus character) OH MY GOSHNESS I was seriously worried that they wouldn’t get him right, and although he does lighten up considerably after he gets to the manor, if memory serves, He was appropriately serious for the circus. Cx

And then later on (I don’t remember if this was in the manga or not) Watching Grell pitch a fit because Beast was with Sebastian, and then proceeding to go on about what an amazing Lover Sebastian apparently was. I seriously almost died laughing. I couldn’t breathe or see straight for almost two minutes XD The entire thing was perfect. And I actually liked that it was short too. Since this only made up a small portion of the plot in the manga they would have had to add a bunch of made up shit to the show to make it much longer.

I just hope they do more soon!!!!! *dies* I don’t know how I’ll handle it if there’s no more black butler to look forward too.

Yea, yea I know I’m a total nerd. Butttttt I accomplished my goal of watching all three seasons in three days sooooo that’s a geek win for sure.

But I’m soooo tired because I’ve had to start after I put the smidge to bed which means at like 7 or 8 to whenever I finished T.T so so tired. *hibernates*

Anywhore…. I’m better than I was the last time I posted. Mostly I’ve just been doing things that make me relaxed and happy. So, lots of makeup and youtube and anime.

But now I must go and watch southpark until Josh gets home. Cx *does flying leap towards the couch*

I’ve Been Doing Very Important Things With My Life……(just kidding!)

Well I mean, I consider binge-watching the entire first season of Black Butler in a 24 hour period important, but most people just think that’s a waste of time. (By most people I mean only boring losers.)

Yup. 24 episodes. After commercials and the intro (yes I watched the intro for every single episode….they’re good songs!) they each take up about half an hour. So I watched twelve hours of (only subbed!) anime. I consider that quite an accomplishment after you add in the fact that I also took care of my darling high-maintenance demon princess, did 2 loads of laundry, and 1 load of dishes. And I even got 7 hours of sleep because I woke up this morning at lunchtime! I’m such an over-achiever XD I also considered watching the Hamlet OVA but it was already 2 a.m. and I was getting pretty tired.

Why the fuck did I decide to do all of that in one day????? Well, I still have to watch all of season 2 today. (and it’s already 4 p.m. so I’m going to be up late again.) So that I can get started on THE BOOK OF FREAKING CIRCUS PEOPLE. (I added in the freaking and the people…..) Because when I was rotting away in the land of no internet I hadn’t even fucking realized that it had been translated. I have been waiting for season three since the day the last episode of season two came out…… (I realize that I’m being a pathetic geek right now, you don’t have to mention it…)

So tomorrow it starts Cx as long as I get done with season two tonight.

And I even accomplished things today too! (total rabbit trail here) I paid for my college classes (art 1 and art 2, I’m suchh and over-achiever) And I picked up some much needed food substance items (coke, milk, whipped cream, and baby food.) I might have also indulged in some hairspray and a pack of gum…. *hangs head in pathetic shame* and then when I got home I found our mailbox!!!!! It was actually on the other side of the first set I checked…..I found this out about an hour later after I’d been wandering around with the Smidget looking totally retarded. I hate these big apartment-complexy mailboxes, how was I supposed to know they have two sides?!?!?

Ugh. Maybe that had something to do with the fact that I stayed up past my bedtime watching my favorite show of all time????

Anyway, back to my anime(teehee that sounds funny to say) I can’t wait to see the book of circus! I LOVED this part of the manga so I’m totally stoked (do normal people still say stoked??? I do, but I think I’ve established that I’m a bit odd.) to see all my favorite characters!!!! Beast and Snake and Smile C’X (pardon me I’m in geek heaven right now I’ll be back momentarily……. okay I’m backish)

So yes. This would be a better post but I’m a bit distracted by that whole fangirling my brains out thing…. I should probably get back to normal in a few days, after I watch my show and calm myself ^.^ Anyways do you like anime? Which types/shows? or do you prefer normal people boring shows? (haha I’m rude, and completely unapologetic!)

I’m Ready To Admit It. I Have A Problem.

*Sighs* I have a serious problem guys, I may have mentioned it briefly in passing. But I’ve never come close to explaining the depth of this issue. How bad I have it.I…..

I’m an addict. What am I addicted to?


Yea. It’s pretty awful. Right now I believe the librarian said I have 22 books checked out. (I will point out that I had six in the return bin when she said this so it’s really only 16.) And after I went to the library? I bought two more. Because I can’t help it. I blame my parents.

This might not sound that bad until you realize that I, the 5’2.5″ marshmallow that I am, carried 16 books around the library while pushing an umbrella stroller full of wiggly smidge. No I didn’t have a bag. It was strenuous okay?!?!? *shivers* Now you might be wondering “wtf did you check out?!” Well I got:

The next 7 Iron Fey books. Because I’m in love with Julie Kagawa anything.

After Obsession By Carrie Jones and Steven E. Wedel. Because It sounded kinda cool.

Blue Lily, Lily Blue By Maggie Stiefvater. Because I’m in love with the Raven Cycle.

The Perks of Being A Wallflower By Stephen Chbosky. Because while I would NEVER EVER admit this out loud, I really, really liked the movie. It was adorable.

A Trick Of The Light By Lois Metzger. Because it looked vaguely intriguing and I could still hold a few more books so why not?

Zero by Tom Leveen. Because okay this is really, really stupid…. I wish I looked like the girl on the cover.

   see?? Shes pretty! I’m a potato: 20141119_173936[1]

See, definitely a potato. I even made a sign that says so.

The Dollhouse Asylum By Mary Gray, because anything that has dollhouse and asylum in the same sentence, has to be cool. And the broken doll on the cover was kindof awesome.

The Fault In Our Stars, by John Green. Because despite wayyyy too much goddamn hype, I really liked Looking For Alaska, and An Abundance of Katherines is now on my favorite book list. So let’s try the one that the mindless mass of sheepies seem to think is amazing. (And I really liked how the guy died first. No apologizies for spoilers on that one people! I know, I’m so evil!)

Captivate By Carrie Jones. Because I liked the first one (Need) and it’s a cute, mindless, girly book.


Purity By Jackson Pearce. Because I will enjoy the irony of reading a book called purity while ignoring the whines of my wedlock-born spawn. Cx

The ones I bought? Were the Death Cure and the Kill Order by James Dashner. Because I’m actually a total fan of the maze runner series. (I liked it before it got popular, just btw. Back when it was all new and underground. ’cause indie hipsters, duh.)

This is the mound:


So this is where I disappeared to, when I inevitably disappear. Let me know if you want me to review any of these or like rant or whatevers. O.O  I also bought a peppermint mocha while I was at books a million, because the smidge decided to be a shit-demon halfway through my shopping and I didn’t kill her. (I did forget that I was in public and kindof called her Hitler and told her I was going to sell her to evil gypsies…..but you know…..okay yea know excuses I’m a horrible person on that one. I was mostly joking??? *shrugs*) Have you read any of these? are you looking forward to any new books? I want to buy Rumble (Ellen Hopkins) but I’m gunna get that one online because I can’t pay $20 for one hardback book.

What’s In That Black-hole/Portal To Narnia That I Call My Bag. *with pictures*

Somebody *coughSammcough* said that I should do one of those what’s in my bagy/pursey things and I figured that since I always like reading them, I’d give it a shot. However since my purse doubles as a diaper bag, it’s actually pretty boring.

First of here is the infamous beast of a backpack that I call my purse.


Pretty sweet no? Yes. To date this is THE most expensive purse I have ever purchased. It was $25 half off at Zumiez. Josh told me if I didn’t buy it he’d murder me, because this bag is just so totally me.

So for starts I shall detail the amazing outside, because honestly the shit on the outside probably weighs more then the actual contents of my bag.

My buttons:


I decided to be nice and count them for you. There are 33. And these are just the ones I have on my bag right now. I have a pile of pink floyd and afi ones as well as a hakuna matata just waiting for me to get around to putting them on.

And now my dangles:


one very grey hello kitty who has seen better days.


one voodoo cat thing, one robot headphone jack splitter thingy (you plug your earbuds into its eyes and then plug his head into your phone.) one Mr. Hat and one Mr. Slave southpark figurines (they were blind boxes, but I wouldn’t have chosen any other character if I could, all I need now is Mr. Garrison) and one shiny blue thing thats a pretty color. I think it was originally a stylus.


One less depressing hello kitty voodoo doll.


This picture came out bad but it’s basically my mini library card, my baby sharpie, and a “mizpah coin” (I don’t know what that is, if you do please please enlighten me.) that has Josh’s name engraved plus our anniversary.


The saddest teddy bear in existence. Okay so I have this thing with maimed stuffed animals…. They look so sad and heartbreaking that I have to rescue them, and keep them safe, because COME ON they’ve already been chewed on or destroyed and you cruel bastards want to throw them in the trash?!?!? So I rescued this little guy from my mom when I was like 8 and sewed his arm shut and he was just chilling out on a bookshelf when Josh was packing stuff and was like seriously?! this thing is kindof disgusting you should probably toss him out, I mean it’s got crayon on its nose! And I was like NO WAY he’s mine and tied him to my bag so nobody can kill him. Except now it kinda looks like I’ve hung a tortured baby teddy bear from my bag and Josh says people will think I’m a creepy sadist because I dress in black and have a sad teddy bear hanging from my purse…… *sighs* This is what I get for trying to look out for wounded toys.


Tiny L, or Ryuuzaki, if you prefer. And if you don’t know him by either name then you obviously have no idea who he is and I kindof hate you a little tiny bit now….not really, though. I just think you’re lame. He was a Chrissymas(or was it birthday??) present from Josh. I found it especially touching, because he quit reading Deathnote and said it sucked after what happened with L *stopped myself from spoilers*

So now let’s progress to the actual contents!!!!

There are two outside pockets and in the left:


Grainy picture but it’s got a thing of hand sanitizer, a purpley lipgloss, and four gum wrappers. Because this is also where I usually store my gum.

Right pocket contains:


$1.35 in change, my baby lighter and my menthols. I actually rarely smoke, only when I’m REALLY really stressed(less then once a day.) But since I kindof have some social anxiety, I bring them just in case I get over crowded or am out for longer then I can handle. I usually keep my wallet in this pouch but right now it’s on my dresser for some reason? (damn gnomes keep movin mah shit.)

Main pouch and mini-inside pouch combined:


The main section holds:

One Mountain Dew bottle filled with water.

One bottle of regular strength acetaminophen left over from the unfortunate days when I was pregnant and couldn’t take Motrin.

One sectioned formula container. When combined with the bottle of water you can create a usually effective Smidge silencing potion.

One container of “Chicken Noodle Soup” baby food (I highly doubt that its actual chicken noodle soup, but the ingredients list looked mostly the same just with more vegetables, so who am I to argue?) She loves it.

Seven diapers. Tied together with two rubber bands so they don’t run around in my bag.

One emergency onsie. Because the Smidge is disgusting.

One thing of wipes. Because the Smidge is VERY disgusting.

Three pieces of paper left over from my trip to the DMV. (In case you’re wondering: one piece of paper saying I passed my drivers ed course, one log of my required 75 hours, and one birth certificate.)

One pamphlet for a Walmart credit card that the cashier lady politely insisted I take.

Two library receipts. (because I keep forgetting that I pay more in library fines than the books would actually cost….)

One mostly clean bib. Because I persist in my futile attempt to keep the Smidge from being disgusting. *sighs* I fail, she gets pretty grungy but I like the grunge style so it’s all good right?

One Baby hair clip (one of the snappy ones? if that makes sense… oh you know the bright colored ones you always see on little girls.) that I used as an improvised paper clip (quite clever I thought)

One Dmv line ticket. *sighs* I hate the dmv…

One carmel candy wrapper

One bag of mostly finished bag of carmel candies.

One 3 pack of peppermint flavored chapstick that I got last chrissymas from my now mother in law (it sounds lamer than it actually is, it’s a cute container, I’m obsessed with peppermint everything, and I always have chapped lips because I chew on them.)

And in my inside baby pouch I keep:

One more subtle pink lipgloss

One spare mechanical pencil eyeliner (because my eyeliner is the only part of my makeup routine I actually care enough to do touch-ups on.)

One Mini eye-drops because both Josh and I have contacts, and it is very very not good to be stranded in the middle of an errand run totally blind.

And a minimum of 3 “feminine hygiene products” which NO girl I know of, doesn’t carry in her bag at ALL times. But is never the less the reason I’m sparing you of one last picture. so instead I will insert this:


This is the Smidge. She’s pretty adorable right? Yea, that’s kindof the reason I haven’t murdered her in a fit of sleep-deprived-why-won’t-you-shut-the-fuck-up-and-go-to-sleep-rage. But she’s usually pretty chilled out and cute so… *shrugs* I think I’m gunna keep it for a while.

(If you don’t get that I’m joking, and seriously think I’d ever consider getting rid of my baby….wow you need to chill out, and get a very inappropriate sense of humor like mine. or a child. And then you’ll know why that’s funny. )

So yup that’s mah bag, what do you keep in yours? what type of bag do you like? I personally like back packs. I think messenger bags look a little cooler, but you can’t beat the comfort and practicality of a back-pack. I personally dislike the ones with just handles…,.especially short handles. *shudders* that’s probably just me though…..